Now, about the main topics I wanted to discuss in this blog.
AGE! I don't mean the actual, literal, representation of Age, as in you know, wrinkles, age spots, white hair, or... lack of hair, baby teeth, footie pajamas.... haha. No. What I'm referring to is internal age.. And I don't mean my organs or something, I mean... gosh what do I mean. haha. I should've figured that out first before I decided to ramble aimlessly. All you college freshmen out there, This is pertained to you. Do any of you feel this kind of weird, paradoxical, oxymoronic aging in you? I mean. damn we're so young, aren't we? There are so many things we know not of, and we can just bump blindly in order to make some sense of things. However, we DO know so much.. I've only been in college 3 months ( a short amount of time considering that I may be in college till the time I'm 30 GO GRAD SCHOOL!), and yet... I feel like I've gained so much knowledge from the time I was still a graduated senior from high school. It seems like I really shouldn't learned much, if I learned anything, during this short amount of time; yet I feel like I have so much more knowledge to offer. Oh, so strange.. High school kids seem so much younger now. I probably do not know much more than they do.. and yet, I have so much to give to them. Cornucopia of experiences. I finally got the old mature boot kick of " I finally realize I'm 18." For sooth, I'm an adult now, and have been for the past 2 months (almost, at least).
Metamorphosis.. College is such an amazing godsend in life. So amazing. It's like a sandpaper wrapped around a certain area of the cord of life, that erodes the greasy black façade we've all been hiding under for the past few years. It's crazy. College exposes you to reality. Everybody isn't who they seemed, or seems to be. Lots of us probably think, dang, I don't think I'll be changed by college. I mean, I know who I am, and I will be able to control the happenings of this whole process. For the few population for which that statement is true, dang. congratulations, I'm glad you know yourself so well. For the rest of us, Change is basically inevitable. I mean, I ADMIT IT. I've changed. College has definitely had an effect on me, even though I haven't been here for a while. The metamorphosis isn't exactly in the sense of what I talked about in my past paragraph, although it is a part of the transformation. There's more. I mean, you just basically totally change, either into someone you've always wanted to be, into someone you'd never thought you'd be, into someone who is you, with subtle either positive or negative traits added. I am definitely not the same person I was back in high school, haha. A perfect example of how people change is the loss of contacts, or gain of contacts that college brings you. Some of your closest friends, will gradually stop talking to you, or just abruptly stop trying to stay in contact with you at all. Some of the strangers, or good friends that you have will suddenly become your best friends. Some of your enemies will become your good friends. Some of your close friends will become enemies. Of course, this is also inevitable. People grow apart, people grow closer. It's all a part of life. We are all individually on different paths, sometimes those paths cross, and you form a great relationship in the form of a rest stop.. but a rest stop is a rest stop, you move on. Sometimes those paths never cross again. Sometimes they end up crossing each other again. Sometimes, our paths are parallel with another's, and we never end up meeting, no matter how hard we try. Sometimes, out paths are converged together, and we end up tied to each other for the rest of our lives. College is just one of those things that puts you in a starting position to get this path really to start winding. I mean, in high school, though there were people we didn't meet, most of our paths had to cross each other at one point. College puts you physically and mentally in different places in your path, so this path separation thing is way more apparent. There's nothing you can do about it.
There's nothing any of us can do. It's not depressing, it shouldn't be. It shouldn't be cumbersome. It's just a part of life that all of us eventually have to go through. It may be hard to accept, and it may take a while to accept it, but we all will at some time. Gradually, we all realize that this phenomena is actually kind of interesting, maybe even considered wondrous. The way life ticks, it makes you pensive. And that's definitely not a bad thing. Thought = growth = YAY!
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alright, that's it for now. (:
La Croissance est nécessaire pour la vie, l'accepter et l'étreindre.
