The verse told me something that i needed to hear since long ago, but it's just different hearing it from any entity other than God. God is all knowing, omniscient, omnipotent, I trust in him, i trust that he knows where i'm supposed to be heading, and so for Him to send unto me the exact words i need definitely gives me motivation to take that fearsome and rocky first step. It's not that other peoples' encouragements and loving pushes don't help me to keep going, it's just that.. though these boosts have gotten to me to such a high level, I needed that one last surge of power from God. and i got it through that coincidental (or not...?) verse that said to me:
(bear in mind i have to rephrase, or else i have to pay 18 dollars just to see it again. yay facebook rip offs, way to take away the holiness hahahahaha, sort of)
OH btw, i'm gonna say this in tiffany terminology, i'm sure God doesn't speak in tiffany ghetto vernacular
" ay yo. get cho ass off yo seat and stop wondering of what the future is going be like. you want your dream? CHASE for it. jump. take that leap. grasp that chance. Take that chance that you can't look back on, because looking back is what's holding you there erect without any further development. so. as i said, get cho ass up, and get to it. This is your day. this is your chance. grasp it."
haha, like i said, exactly what i needed.
And, it also confirmed my determination to get my second tattoo of wings & carpe diem under them.
wings because with God and those loving people around me, my shoulders are strengthened so that i may take that leap, and not fall to the ground, but fly up and succeed into what i've been waiting for. Carpe diem, because i know, from now on, every day is for me to grasp. This is my day. I can't let opportunities pass, I can't let days pass. Time to hold on.
Cool
now for a lighter topic.
haha
life is good right now, at least in my opinion. I have someone that i love dearly, that loves me back. It seems like I've finally found someone that truly takes me for who i am, and understands every single stage of thought, emotion, anything, i go through. it's crazy. it's as if he is able to guess my every move before i even think of them. He makes me happy. He makes me feel like i have worth. i'm lucky. thank you God for bringing him to me. and thank you, for letting me into your world.
i haven't blogged in so long, that i feel like you guys probably know nothing of what's going on in my life these days. haha.
it's almost time for my FCS concert, and the second U chor concert of this semester.
fun stuff.
ooh so guys, i kind of want to join theatre rice. it's this asian acting community club, and i dunno, i guess after years of being in the musicals, and helping others by acting in ms. karr's video project assignments, it's strange to just suddenly stop acting completely. i miss it, even if i'm not great at it. but the thing is, if i do join, i basically will have weeks where i will be at rehearsal until 2 am.... is it worth it? hm. i hope you guys and God will give me some perspective.
woo. okay. haha what a rant post.
anyway, classes are eh right now. Ever since that dream chasing trip, things have kind of faded in comparison to my dream, and that's not the way it's supposed to be. Everything is supposed to be seen in equality, so things are .. very imbalanced right now, which is obviously bothersome to the equilibrium-conscientious (most of the time) me. I gots to get my ass movin'
for sooth.
Alright, i will start updating this blog more often, yeah?
now for some universal words:
It's okay to feel like things are going out of control.. It's okay to relinquish the power that you've always held onto for a good portion of your life. It's okay to take a leap and drench somebody else will all your trust. It's okay. You may get hurt, you may be damaged, but know that these experiences aren't apparent to knock you down permanently. They exist so you can get back up, stronger than you were before. those slumps in your life are what teaches you to appreciate the good, to find the goodness of life for yourself. Those are the things that lift you up to another level, and through these experiences, you will find somebody that is always there for you, and I don't mean just God. There is somebody out there, quietly, silently, supporting you, pushing you forward. It could be your parents, it could be your friend, it could be your grandmother that doesn't talk to you anymore, it could be Him, it could be someone you never expected to find.
Because i met him, he taught me that it's okay to give trust away. Because of him, I realized what head over heels meant.
Because of him, I am happy again.
i share my happiness with all of you, for i wish all of you to be happy.
(:
i promise, i will blog more.
I PROMISE.
i miss this.
haha
i miss sharing things with this posting box.
haha
and you guys, of course
thank you guys, for being here.
for being on this site
for taking the time to read through these rants, and my sometimes absurd opinions.
merci.
je vous aime.
