rip it up, kids.

i don't know how to describe what i feel right now. I wish I could. Part of me longs to feel some sort of sadness, depression, and yet.. nothing's there. Another part of me's telling me to be happy, "good riddance." Yet, none of that precipitates as well. Apathy is all that lingers after " it" flies down the chute. Towards a recycling bin, i'm sure. All that matters to me right now.. is who i am, what the hell i want, and how to take care of those that care for me.. well, not all of those that care for me... and by that i mean, those people that say they care, but... really don't show it.

congrats.

you're 7 days late. exactly a week.

i'm sorry. i don't believe any of the shit that you said.

i'm sorry. i tore it up to shreds. i felt an adrenaline rush caused by a sudden emergence of anger.

you're right.

nothing. nothing between.

nothing of you, nothing of me.

you're nothing. Who the hell are you?

Don't let me ever see you again.

Yes. I do thank you.

taught me a lot about myself, and about what i want.

yes.

you may be the one person in this whole world that i will never give redemption to. the one person that i will render undeserving of an 8th chance.

i counted.

should've stopped a long time ago.

be confused. things are confusing.

humans are confusing.

never should've happened.

a fairy tale gone wrong.

very true. no happy ever after's in reality.

i'm sure you'll find one. you're not cursed.

i'm Jin xed.

i'm not searching. i'm not waiting. i'm not ready.

i don't feel anything anymore. it's that same feeling of numb you get after drinking too much alcohol

but trust me. i'm responsible.

don't tell me to not be strong. you took away too much. i don't have much left to be strong.

i don't have the strength to be kind anymore.

not to you.

or care for you.

none of that.

i hope you're happy.

go for it, forget me. oh wait. i'm sure you already have.

it's easy for you.

you've done it before.

multiple times.

don't say you wish for something good for me.

i find that to be nothing but words to make yourself feel better.

make yourself feel like you're a good person, with good ideals, and good morals.

no.

you said it.

you're bad.

go use yourself.

goodbye.